♥ , I trusted you.

Monday, September 14, 2009 - 9:58 PM

i've changed?

Sometimes I would be wondering, did my attitude changed alot?

I think it did when she told me i did not care much for ppl anymore.

She told me i used to care for friends last time.

But now me, changed.

Everthing turned out to be negative rather thn positive?

But why?

I tried to hold back my tears when she told mi i changed.

I tried to hold back, but did i?

Indeed i did not stay stong, but tears came rolling down my cheek.

I want to stay brave and strong but could'nt i just resist myself.

I was both dissapotinteed and sad when i was thinking twice,

was i doing the right thing?

I think i should not even have spouted about the word "Bitch"

maybe i was really the one whom started the whole scene?

I really regretted when i said the word "Bitch".

This word should'nt be in my mind at first.

But till she really made me pissed off.

I tried controlling my anger. I just cant sometimes.

I wanted to tell you the word bitch was'nt for your mum,

But i was too shameless to do tht when the situation became worse.

I wanted to msg your mum saying a "sorry" as she

was not even involve in this.

BUt, do i have the face?Do i have the courage?

i dont think so.

Maybe i was just too timid.

Maybe i was thinking too much.

But seriously spearking, Sorry auntie,

i was damn angry at tht time.

I feel so hopeless.

I just wished i have the courage to tell you SORRY.

I scold you back in class during sng was because,

was i really making the right decision?

or isit your attitude change?

i gave you an morn msg asking whether you were coming to school,

and your reply was like giving me attitude.

Indeed i felt quite bueysong at tht time.

But maybe you fall sick or something thts y i asked you tht question.

Thinking in class, wondering too...

was i too selfish? or isit my because of my jealousy?

maybe you changed during holidays.

you were even closer to her.

and i was feeling. Sad.

i dontk. why. But i tried to tell myself,

gladys, Be happy k?

okay i have no words to type le.

the person reading this you shld noe hu you are.

I realised my mistakes and i am willing to change.

But is whether we can forgive and forget(: